June 2018, we were less than two weeks away from starting our cycle of IVF when one conversation changed everything. Harper saw a picture of a family created by adoption as I was scrolling on Instagram. Their children were all different ages and ethnicities. She stopped me and quickly said, “mommy, I’ll have a baby sister that’s darker than me too.” I then spent the next several minutes explaining to her what mommy and daddy were fixing to go through and that the baby would look like her. She was adamant though. “Nope. You will have the baby in your heart again. Not your belly. It will be a girl and she’ll be darker than me. Just have the baby in your heart again.” 😳 I brushed it off and later told Jared about the conversation. He opened up about his fears of IVF and the chances of heartbreak. I realized I was feeling the same way, but was trying to hide it. So we started talking and praying about what to do.
The next morning, I called our fertility coordinator and cancelled our treatment and then immediately called Summer with Crisis Pregnancy Outreach. We were led to adopt again. Within a few days our adoption application was resubmitted and we started the home study process. August, I decided to have the laparoscopic surgery for my endometriosis. There were risks, but everything turned out fine. Then we were officially a waiting family in September and had a fully furnished nursery. I just knew it would happen as quickly as Hudson did.
It didn’t. We actually heard nothing but crickets for months… Then the craziness really started. From April to mid May we had 5 calls to be potential matches. Some we knew within hours wouldn’t be working out and some that weren’t with CPO drug out for weeks.. It was exhausting. Then on May 22nd the 6th call happened. It was actually a Facebook message from a different organization and I knew as soon as I read it that this was it. I called the number and got very few details about the situation (like she was 32 weeks pregnant) and immediately said YES! We’re in! Then I called Jared…. I think I did that with Hudson’s call too. Oops.
On June 12th, I walked into an attorneys office and met Haven’s beautiful birth mom. I was anxious until the minute we hugged. Then it all felt natural from there. I had so much respect and love for her. The meeting went well and she had officially chosen us to be her baby’s parents. The next day, she invited me to go her to ultrasound appointment where we found out together that baby is a girl! 💕
The next few weeks flew by as we prepared and I continued to go to doctor appointments and be there for her as much as I could. July 6th, we just got home from my parents when I received the text that she was being admitted after laboring all day at home. We rushed to the hospital and I left Jared in the waiting room to just go check on her. She grabbed my hand as soon as I walked in and I texted Jared that I was staying by her side until she asks me to leave. That wasn’t quite our original hospital plan, but I knew it was exactly where I needed to be. I left the room one time to update Jared and eat real quick. It was a long night full of so many emotions. The nurses and her OB were amazing and so supportive of all of us. Then I watched the most beautiful, indescribable moment of this baby being born, but also witnessed a heartbreaking reality of adoption. The most selfless act I’ve ever seen. She was so strong and brave.
July 7th 2019 at 4:50am Haven Rose was born.
I feel like God really spoke through Harper that night two years ago… and I’m so glad we listened. Now we have that baby sister with the darker complexion. Haven is half Hispanic and has the most beautiful skin I’ve ever seen… and those blue eyes. Well I’ll claim those 🤷🏼♀️.
Thank you for reading her story, loving our girl, and always supporting our journey. She has one hell of a tribe that cares for her.
happy 1st birthday sassy 🖤